This ability to be present. In the moment. In what you are doing right now. I think somewhere we all have lost it. At least I had for a while. Still searching…

In between all the abandoned projects and job-hopping, this was common. On a surface-level, it was about getting bored, seeking novelty and looking for “growth”.

In a way that was not completely false. I was still trying to make sense of myself and the world. Still am.

But the truth is that it was the easiest explanation I had access to. Easily available and accepted.

A day comes when you have to stop lying to yourself. And dig deeper.

It was this constant war in my head: “Is this the best use of my time?” “If I keep doing this, will I be wasting my human potential?”

Now, the question was not the problem. The answer was. No, it is not what you think. It was neither a “Yes” or a “No”.

It was “I don’t know.”

It is this constant assessment that haunts me everyday. Even when I am writing this, that voice is trying to make its way. But perhaps this is what being in the present means, to not let that voice reach your consciousness.

Okay, I am lying. It is still there. You have to learn to ignore it. And you will learn to ignore it only when you are comfortable with “I don’t know.” And being comfortable to know that nobody around you knows.

The only shot you have got is now.